“You don’t need to rush. You’re doing a lot just being here with me.”– Dad, poorly and 71
I’ve tried not to be overly personal with any of these posts because I’m here as a professional –
But “mental health at work” is a thing, and it could be deemed appropriate or acceptable for me to discuss some of the human challenges which influence my journey as a start up (and low budget) business owner.
I have once shared that long-term unemployment can leave you very isolated. Without the cash to go out and enjoy good times with friends, nor pay for presents or holidays, let alone contribute fairly to normal things like food and fuel, connections quickly begin to breakdown.
I’ve met a couple of women I’ve cared about very much, and been unable to develop healthy or equal relationships with them. The second woman I actually warned in advance that I didn’t know when I would be back in employment (and so was unsuitable for a relationship), and we had a bad relationship for a long while before mutually agreeing we were no good.
I remember my nan always told me, “Make sure you have your own money”, and I did manage that for some years before illness and mild disability struck.
And now I can choose to look at myself and see “Failure”, or I can see “Survivor”.
Either way, I’m broke. My CV is shot, my connections are mostly dead and I’m introducing my unemployed but self-employed self much like a girl shouting down a dark corridor hoping that somebody at the end might be listening.
And all of that can make you despondent, or determined –
And I’m determined. My determination is tempered (or interfered with) by such as “imposter syndrome”, but any self-appraising individual can be guilty of accusing themselves of occasionally not being up to the task at hand.
But nothing ventured, nothing gained:
None of us has the time to tell ourselves, “I’ll never be able to do this”. If we only live once, then why not put our all into our one go at life?
I can find a pit and shrivel up and die in it, or I can say, “Sod everything – I’m alive and healthy enough, and I’m going to keep fighting.”
And that’s what I’m going to do. I’ll just have to keep jabbering into the ether and trust that if I cast a wide enough net, healthy leads will follow.
I hope that whoever reads this post will not think less of me for sharing what I have labelled as “human challenges”.
Nobody has a straight path through life or maybe not even through their career, and I only have sought to share a piece of mine –
My business exists to strengthen the work of entrepreneurs similar to me: Those who are striving and who could benefit from accessible, skilled support in order to help their business be as successful as it can be.
I’m Ruth and I do digital marketing through copywriting –
Feel free to get in touch and introduce yourself and your business!